thots

It is amazing how events in life alter life.  While I know this, it is living in it, like being in a fog.  I know the forms, the routines of my life and go in that direction, but it just isn't the same, or is it.  Life is there and all around me, nothing has changed, it is me.  Death has taken friends and recently my aunt.  Those interactions are now gone and missed.   It is not about replacing them, it is about re-establishing myself.  I need to rise above the fog, feel the sun in my f ace again and let it's warmth grow me.   I will probably fall back into the fog but know the sun is just above and will keep a ladder nearby to help go  back and forth.  I need to take a look at my life from the roof top; what I have, what I want to do and where to go next.....knowing my journey will one day end as the sun sets.